Shermy=Share with Me 六寶媽日誌

Recently I stumbled to a post on FB asking people is it allow to donate presents in hospital to sick children during this COVID-19 periods, as this mum had lost her child and the child’s 2^nd birthday is approaching, she just feel like doing something to honour him.

最近在臉書看到一個PO文，是一個媽媽在詢問疫情期間是否還能捐贈禮物給醫院的病童們，因為她想要藉由做善事來紀念自己已逝並將屆滿兩歲的兒子。

When you see a beautiful act rolls out by someone, especially that someone had been through a hard time; it touches my heart and makes me want to do something for this desperate mum. So I decided to paint a memorial rock for her.

當你看到有人在做善事，這個人還經歷了令人揪心的生死離別，這深深感動到我，並讓我想為這位媽媽做些什麼事。於是我決定幫她畫一顆紀念石。

Haven’t do portrait for ages, and it’s a good time to practice one. I had the photo of this little boy with the tube on his face with a big smile; I pray in my heart I can paint it good enough to comfort this mum.

很久沒有畫人物肖像了，趁這個機會來練習。這位媽媽給了我一張小男孩的照片，他的臉上戴著呼吸器，笑得很燦爛。我在心裡祈禱著自己能畫出好作品以撫慰這位媽媽的心。

His name was Kaiden, he was born with down syndrome. He had the complication of Pulmonary Hypertension plus hole in the top two chambers in his heart. That mean, his body cannot receive enough oxygen which bring to his death.

小男孩叫做凱登，是個唐氏症寶寶。他患有肺動脈高壓，加上心室上頭有破洞，也就是說，他的身體得不到足夠的氧氣，並因而死亡。

To be honest, I can’t even tell Kaiden was born with down syndrome by the photo, all I can see is a very brave soul with a beautiful smile.

老實說，照片中我根本看不出來凱登是個唐氏症寶寶，我所看到的，是一個擁有美麗笑容、很勇敢的一個靈魂。

I guess my prayer had work, I’m happy with the result. But there’s a small accident when I tried to seal the rock. A small bit of paint had peeled off. This is the second time it happened to me when I do a portrait rock! There’s no word to describe how frustrated I was at that time. It took me more than 2 hours to finish the rock, the least thing an artist want is the defection.

也許祈禱真的奏效了，成品我很滿意，但是有個小缺點，就是當我在給石頭上防護漆時，一小塊漆掉了。這是我在畫肖像石的時候第二次發生這種事！沒有文字可以形容我當下的沮喪。一個藝術家花了兩個小時以上才完成的作品，最最不想看到的就是有缺陷。

Anyway, I try my best to fix it, it’s not perfect, but it’s good enough, what matter is my sincerity in the making, not the result. I decorate the back of the rock with sun and flowers, write his name down, and the date. I can almost see it, a mum with her saddest eye and most broken heart, holding her beloved baby, so tiny in her arm, the pain that no word can describe and no one can bear.

無論如何，我盡我最大的努力修繕，雖然不完美，但也夠好了，畢竟，結果如何不重要，重要的是我繪畫當下的那個誠心。我在石頭背後畫了太陽和花，寫下了他的名字和日期。我幾乎可以看見，一個母親，眼中強烈的哀傷和碎裂滿地的心，手中抱著她心愛的、小小的孩子…那種苦痛，沒有任何文字足以形容、非一般人所能承受。

I’m glad my painting of the memorial rock had made the mum feel comfort. And it definitely gives me the message of cherish my kids in any way I can. You just never know when you have to say good bye. I’m lucky. And every time I hug my kids, I think of this mum and her beautiful heart, for I know, Kaiden had chosen a very brave mum who can brace her sadness and give out her love at the same time. Love is the answer, definitely.

我很高興自己繪製的紀念石有安慰到這位媽媽，這也提醒了我必須好好珍惜和孩子們的相處，因為你從來不知道什麼時候會說再見。我真的很幸運。每一次當我擁抱孩子們時，我就會想到這位媽媽，她那顆美麗的心，就是凱登會選擇她成為媽媽的原因，因為她能擁抱自己悲傷的同時仍將愛發揚光大，愛果真是一切所有的答案。